Her mood swings, her emotions, her cravings,her hormones, her fears..That's all everyone around could see.. All failed to notice a different him..
He was trying hard to cope with the situation.. Under the excitement and happiness he hid his doubts and fears.. He kept thinking ,gone are my childhood days and my playful ways.. Under his strong exterior and "All is Well"smile, hid his apprehensions.. He was putting up a brave front , whereas within,he was struggling to see his sweetheart tired, throwing up after every meal, irritated and angry.. Sure it was normal, every woman faces it.. He was told it's ok, only for him it was not ok because it wasn't any other woman.. It was his "Sweetheart ".. Everynight he wrapped her in his arms and whispered a promise that tomorrow would be better. She saw he was different, she saw he was already a father- brave, strong and confident. She put all her burden on his shoulders and slept in peace.. With a silent prayer and hope that tomorrow would indeed be different for her, he just looked at her sleep in peace.. Only thing that motivated him to be strong and determined was the arrival of their lil bubs.. With a smile he saw his dreams..
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Summer weekends were generally on road for us.. A very memorable road trip from Auckland to Cape Reinga distance of 425 kms one way to the northern most tip of North Island.. Yes we drove to Cape Reinga and back to Auckland the same day..
Sure we were tired as hell but was an experience of a lifetime..The adventure doesn't end here, after passing the last town Kaitaia we realised ,we ran out of fuel.. So here we were middle of nowhere with no network on our cellphones stranded on the road.. We hitchhiked to the closest town to the nearest fuel station.. The person who gave us a ride took a detour that really just scared us out of our wits.. What I realised was looks could be so deceptive.. He was just going out of the way to help us.. I learnt that day,that we have not just moved to a country which is best known for its scenic beauty but also wonderful people.. New Zealand definitely was the best decisions of our life.. When I first found out I was pregnant the first feeling in me was "Fear".. Don't get me wrong I was definitely happy and my little bubs was very much planned. The fear was about if I could do it.. All my life I have feared doctors,hospitals, needles have avoided them like a dreadful disease.. Now was the time I had to face my fears..
And.. Did I face my fears?? Yes... No...?? There's still some time for that. For now it's time to celebrate. We first announced it to my parents, as expected they were jumping with joy.. Then my in laws,the reaction was pretty much the same.. I got many dos and don'ts from my already pregnant sister in law..My husband was on cloud 9.. Extended family and friends shared the same reaction.. Everyone were happy and excited.. I kept getting this thought every now and then, is it normal for fear to be my primary emotion and happiness to take the secondary place ?? Finally I did get a different reaction from my mom, she was very sad that she living so far from me ,was unable to pamper me the way she had always imagined to do..Not to worry, that part was well handled by the new father to be.. Well with continuing the celebration, excitement and happiness it's time to face my "FEARS " 5 blissful years of marriage- In which we created many wonderful memories. We moved to a new country with just the 2 of us to support, love and care for each other. We faced so many different emotions together.. Fear of starting from scratch, fear that we knew no one, fear that we had left a very comfortable life behind , there was this constant fear with anxiety and loneliness. We understood how it is to have mixed feelings, we were so excited and happy having moved, to our own rented house . Having lived under the shadow of our protective parents it was new to manage our finances and bills but we learned to make our ends meet. Sure it was tough, heartbreaking and we just wanted to give up only we didn't give up .. We fought to achieve our dreams . Today after 5 years we have achieved respect, place and acceptance for ourselves at this place we call our home "New Zealand "
Our journey so far..
We met, we clicked, best friends to lovers to life partners and now parents of a little angel..Thats our story! Same batch, same bench for 3 years in University. Work, higher studies everything just got us closer and made us stronger.. 8 years of courtship and then we walked down the aisle to be Man and Wife ! |
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